I miss my previous job 🙁 I hit my month mark at my present job and it appears like I’m lacking an ex, which is wild.
It’s additional laborious as a result of my previous job was a part of my identification. I labored in psychological well being and it felt so fulfilling, I felt like I used to be good at one thing *and* doing one thing good. But it surely was so, so exhausting and draining, and after a consumer died, I knew I couldn’t do that long run. It additionally didn’t pay properly. I made a decision I’d take a break from it and check out a distinct path, and ultimately will work in psychological well being on the aspect.
So I began this new job, the place I don’t should work with purchasers, nonetheless doing one thing comparatively useful for the neighborhood, however a lot much less attention-grabbing. It pays a lot better and work life stability is healthier. I don’t take my work residence with me mentally.
However my group isn’t very progressive, they don’t actually acknowledge psychological well being or social justice, and it’s not as culturally numerous as my final office. I’m additionally the one childless individual there. Nonetheless, they’re all well mannered and good and if I ask for assist, they’re useful. I really feel like I can’t be myself as a lot on this office, so I’m extra quiet, which has made it tougher to click on with anybody.
I notice I had a unicorn office beforehand the place I labored primarily with ladies, individuals of coloration, and LGBTQ coworkers, the place we felt valued and revered (apart from our pay) and had plenty of open discussions about psychological well being as a result of it was a part of our work. I actually loved being with my coworkers and felt comparatively fast connection.
I’ve been staying linked to my previous coworkers and boss (we had been a distant group) but it surely simply makes me miss them extra. And as a lot as I miss them, I do know I don’t need to work for them, as a result of they don’t have any positions that aren’t consumer going through that I might do. And the pay was too low for the excessive workload.
So now I simply really feel…caught in some form of limbo. I don’t really feel like I’m looking for a lot good in my new job as a result of I’m caught lacking my previous job and evaluating. I don’t really feel attention-grabbing with out my previous job. I’d prefer to have extra issues to do outdoors my work, like hobbies, and now I even have time for that, however I don’t have motivation to do it but. I love buddies who’re like “work is figure” however spending 40 hours per week doing one thing, I’m extra motivated by feeling linked to my work.
Has anybody been in an analogous scenario? Does it get higher?
